Recharge my batteries, start afresh & stay focused

Finally the week(working week i suppose) has come to an end. I thought i would never come, seriously. It has been kinda an indifferent week for me. Time was passing damn slowly, a couple bad luck during my detailed. Been suffering from outrageous bad lucks whenever i go out of camp. Tues, went to ALB and kranji camp. Wed, went to CMPB and supposedly Maju camp but instead ended up at kaki bukit camp at eunos. What the fuck. I'm not going into details because firstly, i'm very pissed and secondly, there's no point talking about it. Been busy through out and i certainly hope i have grasp hold of accounting. I hope so. U see, the problem with me and paperwork is that, we just don't get along well. Me especially, tend to be careless and make mistakes. And i don't pay too much attention to my work, AT TIMES...... Ok, so much bout my weaknesses. Lets move on..... Have been eating quite alot recently and i've noticed that after only a few days of slight relaxation from my workouts, i'm feeling fat. This is not good. The eating part doesn't help either. So what should i do? Its time to put things into perspective. "Time to stand up and be counted" "Nothing is goin to stop me and i will do whatever it takes to get my goals" "God dammit, i will fight and stay focused, disciplined and be strong" -(take not that i was talking to myself, trying to psych and motivate myself) [Sometimes you just have to get up on your ass and do something worthwhile]

Dark clouds looming?

Woke up in the morning feeling sick. And i mean really sick. Felt like puking but thankfully i didn't. I hate vomitting. Its so yucky but sometimes u feel good after you puke especially when you're having a hangover. Anyways, i'm not here to talk about vomitting. Been feeling kinda sick and nasueau lately especially today. Its not like you're really sick but more of a 'something bad is going to happen' thingy. I'm sure most of you have heard about the train incident last wednesday. It was just damn bad loh. I just couldn't imagine what actually happened. Jesus. When i first heard that the guy actually when down onto the track to retrieve his shoe, i was like, that was sheer stupidity. But when i think about it, i think he was really thinking straight. Ok. Let me explain, its like when you drop something and you just bend down to pick it up. So, imo, it was a spontaneous reaction. But i still think it was a reckless act. Hey don't get me wrong, i'm not scrutinizing this guy but i would have think twice about going down onto the tracks. That's not the only bad thing. What about the people around him? Forget about his fiancee. The zombies around just didn't give a fuck bout it. Is it? Or maybe it happened so fast, so instantaneously that the whole world stops for a few seconds? It could be. I just can't describe my feelings. Could i have help the man if i was there? Or was there no way that anyone could have saved his life? Why are people dying? So many of them. Just so many. I don't understand why. The tsunami attack was bad. I was totally disgusted with that. It was unbearable to know about it let alone to experience it. The latest news is the earthquake this morning. What next? All this is making me sick. I'm just so sick of it right now. All we need is a breath of fresh air. Good, clean air. Please..... [People live, people die. Is that it?]

Not feeling too good....

Woke up in the morning with sore throat and sore eyes. Well, actually its only one eye. Could not have been a better monday morning. As usual, i didn't feel like going to work and the sore throat and sore eyes just made the decision even easier. But in the end i did make my way to work. I was feeling that bad la but i was just so tired. I haven't fallen sick for almost 4 months. I'm not sure whether its some kind of a record or what la. The weather hasn't been too kind lately. Plus the hazy skies and bad air all around. Sianz........ Had alot of work today. Of all days, it had to be today. I don't understand why people work on mondays. Should be just chillin out. The good thing was i did complete every single work i had on my trays. You see, we have this tray for the accounts side where we put any documents that are required to be done. Last week, the trays were stacked to the maximum but me and sara, my upperstudy managed to clear that. Today we had more documents to do and thankfully, we did complete it. It gives us pleasure and great satisfaction to see that the trays are always empty Tomorrow will be another ball game. Will be heading down to ALB. Sianz........ Went to the normal gym with alvin to do some workout. Think i will be heading down to CF on wednesday and hopefully i'll be feeling 100% by then. And i guess you guys would probably have known that, due to unforeseen circumstances, i am unable to hire a personal trainer. I'm very disappointed. Very. I'm kinda lost right now because after the two free sessions with the personal trainer, Erwan, i feel that i needed somebody to guide me along. Now, i'm seriously running out of ideas. I hope to gather more resources and whatever help i can find to hire Erwan. I really think that its worth it. No doubts. Just hope i will be able to la but i guess i'm on my own for now. [People who say it cannot be done should not interrupt those who are doing it]

Money, Money & more Money....

Who doesn't want to be rich? Its always the same words that has been ringing in my ears for the past couple of months. Sometimes, i envy those who have a luxury life, without worrying about their financial state. As for myself, have been struggling to enjoy with the money that i've got. Most of my friends knew about my $$ problem because it is such a well known secret that i go around bitching(not literally) about my problems to my friends, u know who you are guys :o If only i had gone to OCS and earn much more than what i'm getting now. Sispec wouldn't be too bad either. But it all comes with a price la. More shit means more pay. Thats how it works in the army. Anyways, thats beside the point. My point here is, can somebody give me money? No la, just kidding. My real point here is, is it possible to get rich even without being rich in the first place? Did that make sense? I'm sure it did. In my opinion, i think its possible although it will take a long time before we get to taste the fruits of our labour. For me, i'm thinking big. I want to be rich. I want to live happily with no worries. I mean, money makes the world go around. Especially in Singapore, you need to have money for everything. Without money, you can't survive. I'm sounding like i'm money minded. I may be one but who doesn't? C'mon, lets face it. If someone offers you a cheque of let say, a thousand dollars, would you take it? Of course. Even if you had admitted that you're not money minded. Well, to those who thinks that they are not money minded, please, just face the facts and come back to reality. Been trying to plan my budget every month but everytime i got it right, initially, i will tend to screw things up. So in the end, i'm fucked. Excuse me for my crude language but its the truth. Just hope to get it right when my next pay comes in. Oh ya, in case you guys didn't know, i'm getting pittance *shaking head in disgust* [Do whatever you think is right, but if something goes wrong then you're screwed]

Courtesy & Considerate; Is it a Singaporean trait?

As much as i love and proud to be a singaporean, i despise those(yeap, singaporeans that is) who just doesn't know how to be considerate and show courtesy. Most of the people i know are good people but sadly, there are also others who aren't. I won't mentioned names because its not politically right to do so. Anyways, my point here is, singaporeans aren't as considerate and courteous as most people had come to know of. This is frankly bullnuts but its a fact. One very clear example is the mrt. I'm sure most of us take the train everyday. And i'm sure that most of us seldom sits on the train. Alrite, i'm only referring to those who have enough consideration and courtesy not to rush into train even before passengers alighting it and grabbing sits like they were made of gold. Frankly speaking, that's pathetic. It usually happens to me everyday. Okay, that sounds abit off key. Basically, its what i have been observing everyday, especially coming back from work. Everytime i reach jurong east interchange(the middle track), even before passengers get to alight from the train, those waiting to get on board rush in like scavengers, trying to get sits. As for me, i couldn't get off the train without barging(accidently of course!!) into someone. Alrite, we may be singaporeans, living in a modern society, high class this, high class that but in terms of emotional intelligence, we are bad. I'm not sure how will we fare in terms of being nice people with other countries but i'm sure we aren't that bad. Hopefully when i get the chance to go overseas(i've only been to malaysian, indonesia and thailand) i will probably get to observe our fellow homosapiens. How many of us have encountered bad customer service or should i say, rude people? I'm sure most of us did. And its not a good thing. This could happen anywhere and everywhere. Be it at work, shopping malls or even food courts. Being courteous is not only being nice to people, in my opinion, its also about respecting another person and showing emotional intellingence. I can safely say and rightly so, that i have high emotional intellingence and being courteous wherever and whenever i can. Its very hard to explain whether someone has high or low emotional intelligence. I'm sure some of you have read a post on komal's blog about the racist guy who wrote something about indians. Okay, its his blog and he can write whatever he wants but whatever he wrote is being read by people everywhere. Firstly, to say something so condescending about another race is not a good thing, obviously. Secondly, to claim that its nothing and that he could give a fuck about it is also not a good thing. So, what can we assess from here? Well first of all, i'm disappointed to know a singaporean with such attitude. This guy obviously has ZERO emotional intelligence. He didn't care about what he said and most importantly, he didn't care about what others would have felt with the comments he had made. Well, basically, i got nothing to say about this guy. The only thing i can hope for is for him to realise his mistake and be more considerate. Most of us don't usually admit our own mistakes. Even if we do, do we actually admit it? As in literally? People make mistakes and learnt from it. But do we? [Once a jerk, always a jerk]

Wassup...

Haven't been updating my blog for a couple of days now. Been kinda off colour for the past few days. Don't know why so don't bother asking :) Anywayz, i'll update the blog whenever i'm free. So i apologise for that :P By the way, i happen to notice that my fren, Hafiz has set up a new blog. Not bad, its kinda neat and quite creative, to a certain extent la. I guess i'll have to upgrade my blog now. I think it's kinda vague and bland. Hmm....... Haven't been up to anything this week. Kinda busy at work with all the paperwork and thank god, most of the last few weeks paperwork have been done. It was really alot of of work loh. I hope i can get to grips with the work. All i need to do is just familiarise myself with the work that i will be doin over and over again. Just hope that i don't screw up *thumbs up* My dad and mum went to Batam for a mini holiday and basically i'm all alone at home for the past three days. They are coming back tml though and might be goin out jalan-jalan and makan. Guess it will be on my dad's ;) Did my workout with alvin on wednesday. Nothing much but we ran ard 8 plus. Never ran at night before and i think its quite gd. The air is much cleaner and cooler. The only thing i'm afraid of are bats. Seems to be everywhere whenever i'm running. There was this time when i was sort of chased by a couple of bats. That was like a couple of months ago la and i remember brian coming up with one of his smart-ass jokes bout that. And recently, there were bats hovering around me when i'm running. It just gives me the creeps. Alrite alrite, i'm afraid. What u want me to do? Man, gimme a break will ya. geeez....... [After a few days without writing or reading, talk becomes flavourless]

Racism & Prejudice

We live in a society where cultural values are taught and respected, with different races and religion. I mean, everyone knows that we live in a multi-cultural society. Its an old cliche but do many of us think that way all the time? Sometimes, being in a minority group in this country, makes me wonder, are we ever been noticed or simply cast aside? We all know the majority population here and they will always get the nod, ahead of others in anything. For example, getting a job in this country will forever be tough. And its been made tougher when priority is given to certain people. Ok, it may not always be the case but everyone knows it. Its even happening in the army. Why am i making a big deal out of it? Well, i'm not. I'm just stating facts that has belittle others. It has happened to me before and it will continue to happen. I'm sad to say that it will always be like that and even more so, is the fact that people always say that we are living a multi-racial society. Is it the language that we speak? Is it the colour of our skin? What is it? No one knows and no one will ever tell u why. It will just go on and continue to plague our so-called multi-racial society. The government have been trying to enforced bondings and communications among people of different races and religion. I'm sure they did. What we see is only on the surface, but underneath it? Don't bother i suppose. Do racism exist in our country? Does racism and prejudice goes hand in hand? Racial-prejudice? To be continue......

Great workout but.....

Had a gd time yesterday at the california fitness with the personal trainer, Erwan...we did a total body workout and to tell the truth, i have never felt dat great before after a workout...the legs workout was damn tiring and i could feel my legs muscles coming out now hahaha..actually, we dun have to do abs exercises to get the abs..wat i meant is, its not necessary la although u still have to do it la but not too much, to the extent dat u could hurt ur back....at the end of everything, i must say dat training with a personal trainer do help..very much...we are working out properly, with the correct technique so as to avoid injury as well as to get the best out of the muscle..also, if u have a goal, the personal trainer can help u get it although it takes time la..like wat erwan told me, always come with a positive attitude and discipline....if u're tired bcos of alot of work is one thing, if u're tired bcos of laziness is another... Now, my aim is to get the personal trainer for a period of time...its not up to me though, sadly...its up to my dad la :( i really hope he understands and gives me the chance to do it...i mean, its costly la but if we pay by credit card, it'll be much more cheaper cos instead of paying for every session, we will be paying every month instead for a period of 1 year la...man, i really wan to do this..there's no other thing i wan to concentrate on..i noe i will make dis work... So after the workout, we went for lunch at cineleisure's food court...oh ya, did i mention dat the shower room there is just damn superb...they provided shower foam and shampoo with conditioner too....anywayz, after lunch met up with hafiz who looks like someone just stole his wallet...basically he looked like fucked up..haha seriously, can try askin ed...while we were waiting for brian, we pratically covered every inch in town..haha..not literally la..walk and walk till the ball of my feet hurts...and i'm complaining for the sake of bitching but it really hurts..its not a nice feeling la :0 Planned to catch a movie but in the end decided not too..perhaps another day...but another day means it would be without ed...he will be reporting to SAFTI on monday morning..he's goin to OCS...doesnt really surprised me..wat surprised me earlier in the week was dat he said he might be goin to SISPEC..dat was a surprise haha..but ok la..i wish the best of luck and now, he'll be getting good allowance loh..damn shiok loh..dammit...but anywayz, kinda sad to see him go after almost 4 months of slacking after pop from bmt...i just wanted to start playing soccer with him on sundays loh :( so i guess i'll just to wait a while more...and its really a while more loh...he also can't accompany me to california fitness(CF)...i tink shud get alvin the guest membership then.. just need to work out some formalities with kim... [PS: This quote is for u bro] [To lead, To Excel, To Overcome]

Getting sick of paperwork...fuck it!!!!

Had a torrid time at work today..tons of work, paperwork dat is...had to clear this, clear that.. print this, print that..indent this, indent that...frankly speaking, i'm getting sick of it loh..its a friday and i had to do all dis work..of all days, it had to be today.....wah lau..cant take it...on the other hand, keep reminding myself dat i'm only on the job for ard 3 weeks..there's still time for me to learn and get things rite...i hope so....i just need to work until i get it..get wadever i need to make myself useful in the accounts field...sounds bullshit i noe but who cares..i noe wat i hav to do and i will do it....wadever it takes :0 Did some workout today wif alvin....it was damn tiring la but i felt gd at the end of it..did some weight training, concentrated on triceps and biceps only....then went for a run...towards the end of the run, we had a sprint, probably ard 50 metres...alvin was fast but i was faster la, fortunately for me hahaha....it was damn gd la...brought back memories when i was a sprinter during my primary skool days..bet u guys din noe dat... Won quite a number of trophies and medals but too bad i can't find them now..fuck..shud hav kept them properly...dammit...anywayz, i feel like running..as in, my passion for running has been re-ignited....but the only problem i hav now is my shin...haiz..wasted la..there's too much complications in my shin dat even the speacialist doesnt noe wat or how to explain...so much for being a medical expert....ya, a medical expert my ass....wadever.... Hope dat my injury doesnt worsen lo and now dat i've been running almost every week, there's no way its gonna heal...but i hope its gd enough for me to get downgraded la :p Oh ya, will be heading down to california fitness tml with ed...hopefully, it'll be another great and meaningful day for us eh....i'd oso hope dat ed or alvin would sign up as members too...i need some one who can go there together with me..u noe, at least u're not alone, those kind of thing.. cos for me, i hate goin out to town alone..i prefer to be out with someone...but i dun tink either one of them will sign up la..i can only wish...oh ya, any of u guys interested, can call me..thanx ;) [If you're given a task, do it. If you have a problem, solve it]

Emphatic victory....

Another win for newcastle and we're thru to the quarter finals of the UEFA Cup...dis time last year we won mallorca 7-1 on aggregate...one year later, we're up against a drop out champions league team, Olympiakos and guess wat...we won 7-1 on aggregate....it was an impressive performance from the lads all season...dyer was just phenomenal...ok la, maybe phenomenal is a big word..perhaps, very impressive is better...no doubts...even jenas and bowyer played well...i wouldn't want to point out individuals bcos it was the team dat won the game for us so everyone played their part..its now eight wins on the bounce and lets hope the run continues on saturday where we will meet the pompeys, who happens to be on a downward spiral..its time to improve the our league position and the best time to do it is dis weekend...c'mon lads :o Can dyer inspire newcastle to another win? Anywayz, nuthing much to talk about at work..as usual, i went to ALB to return equipment and as usual, came back late to camp..fuck...i dunnoe why everytime i go ALB, i alwayz return late to camp..i'm getting sick of it...if it happens again, i dunnoe wat i will do loh...so basically, spend almost half a day at ALB...hmmph...oh ya, tomorrow's disposal of documents has been postponed to next week..so at least i get to rest abit la but dat doesn't mean i dun have work to do loh :( Went to California fitness with ed to check out our free session with a personal trainer..and i must say, its an enjoyable experience...dis trainers noe wat they're talking as they have done their homework...the personal trainer dat took us was Erwan, a 31 year old malay guy, married with 3 kids...he looks damn fit la...for the record, he's a bodybuilder la..sort of anyway...and he was talking to us bout the proper way of doing workouts...for me personally, he said dat i need to do 3 things; conditioning, preparation and maintenance...in order for me to get my abs and bulk up, i need to do wat he tells me too...so basically i need professional help which i'm thinking of getting...i tink it would really help me....another $$$ problem i have to worry about then haiz... [The only way to look, is forward]

Passive

passive/paesiv/adj: accepting what happens or is done to one without responding actively A Perfect Circle- “Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me But I just can’t believe him, never the optimistic one I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me" Maybe you’re better off this way Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been It's your right and your ability To become…my perfect enemy… Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You disappoint me” Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way Maybe you’re better off this way You’re better of this…you’re better off this… Maybe you’re better off! Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe Someday I’ll walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!” Maybe you’re better off this way Go ahead and play dead I know that you can hear this Go ahead and play dead Why can't you turn and face me? Why can't you turn and face me? Why can't you turn and face me? Why can't you turn and face me? You fucking disappoint me! [What if I told you that God and the devil made a wager, a kind of standing bet for the souls of all mankind? It may make sense to you but i think it's hypocritical bullshit] *Excerpts from Constantine

Accounts IC....

Today was my day as an accounts ic...bcos sara, my upperstudy, took off today and tml also... went to alb to clear some stuffs and did a fast and efficient job without any hiccups...actually, i felt quite comfortable alone than with sara around..but there were stil certain stuffs dat i'm unsure of..so i guess i need to solve the problems before sara clears his leave or even taking off on certain days...all in all, everything is ok la...not much pressure or hesistation in wadever i'm doing...i just need to play it cool and simple...don't rush or panic, just remain calm and cool headed so i can get things done correctly and effectively...i hope everything will be alrite... I kinda felt pressure to do accounts the same way sara did...although he is one arrogant son of a bitch and condescending towards others esp me, i must say he's gd in watever he does...i hope to bring him down if i have the opportunity to do so...by the way, he's also ignorant, no emotional intelligence and thinks he's cool....wadever...hope to kick his ass :) Tml after work, will be heading to the california fitness centre with ed for our first workout there...kinda excited but at the same time, i serious bout it and hope to improve my fitness and get the abs i truly desire..i will keep goin even if there are obstacles to overcome...and god dammit i will do it...dis is wat i hav set out to do and u can bet ur ass i will do it...wish me luck guys...peace :p [I'm so warm and calm inside; I know i'm right]

More and more paperwork....

Hasn't been a great monday for me personally...din have enough sleep, had tons of paperwork to be done and as usual, bloody hot weather..for those who noe me, knows dat i will alwayz complain bout the weather and it doesn't tire me out haha...u can try askin them loh...anywayz, the amount of paperwork is getting to me..fuck..i hate dat..i hate working under pressure especially the amount of work and the due date of finishing it.. Tml is another busy day i guess...will be goin to ALB again to clear some stuff...then on thurs, might be goin to ALB again to collect some equipment and friday, i might be goin to the tuas for the destruction of documents...basically, i'm tied down dis whole week..fuck...at the same time, i'm trying to stay positive and do my work in a most relaxed and comfortable mindset...for me, i like to do things concisely and with precision...i hate rushing into doin things especially paperwork....so i hope to do things smoothly and at the same time, not feeling stressed or pressured :p Anywayz, newcastle is thru to the semi finals of the FA cup....a hard fought 1 nil win again with kluivert on the scoresheet once more....got bad injury problems ahead of a hectic schedule.. dammit..hopefully we'll pull thru dis and win something for god sake..its bout time i tell u..almost 50 years since we won the FA cup and god dammit, i really hope dat it will be our year dis year...kick the manure scums asses....c'mon lads... [What first appears as a calamity may later bring good fortune]

Dats it for dis month...i think...hmm....

Today is sunday...rite..so wat do u do on a sunday? for me, i'll stay at home..but today, i went to imm with brian, and spend ??? amount of money...not sure why but it was all important stuffs.. not only did i spend but i also transferred my pru-cash $$ to my agent, which is done every month by the way...i also paid for my hp bill(4o bucks, pheeew)..i got myself a new sports bag(reebok), some toiletries/facial stuff and some groceries at GIANT...so all in all, dat doesn't do me any gd for the next few weeks until my next pay la :( So guys, u noe wat u need to do ah...forget bout me k, for the time being dat is :P Anywayz, cant wait to go to the california fitness centre to workout...need to make a schedule with ed and alvin.. so guys, we need to discuss bout our plans k... Tonite, there will be the FA cup quater final match between newcastle and spurs...hope we can win dis game and move a step closer to the final..i hope dis year will be our year and not only dat we haven won anything for 36 years, its also for our legend, Alan Shearer...there's no way we are not goin to win the cup dis year...although its an old cliche, its our year!!!! C'mon lads.... Captain Marvel, the one and only [Someday, somehow, somethings will go my way]

Hitch

Went out to town yesterday with hafiz, ed and brian....as usual, the crowd at town on saturdays is bad...i hate dat...anywayz, went to the california fitness to collect my 'prize'...all of us went in and were attended by dis lady, Kim, the fitness consultant..she was super nice and refreshing and she doesnt look like she's married(yeap, she's married with a kid)..she looked so young, sooo 21 hahaha...she gave a gd tour of the whole fitness centre and provided us with much info...so in the end, instead of taking up the two weeks free membership, i decided to sign up as a permanent member albeit a student membership la...she gave us the benefit of the doubt and say dat we could sign up as member using a student pass which we still have by the way :p So all in all, i only have to pay 58 bucks every month..its quite cheap imo..i mean, its a gd price considering dat we could hav paid ard 100 bucks..i'm excited but at the same time, feeling abit concerned...did i made a rash decision? was dat impulsive? i hope not...ok, i may not be getting gd pay now, but i'm sure if i set aside certain priorities, i'm sure i can handle it( read my horoscope)..even edmund and alvin get to go there for a month..for free...seriously..all courtesy of Kim..So now, my priority is to look gd and feel gd..get the abs and be fit...simple...dats it...i'm going forward and i ain't looking behind... After all dat time at the california fitness centre, we went to cineleisure to get the tix for the movie Hitch...Then we had dinner at BK...all of them had the usual stuffz, whooper, mushroon swiss and wat not...i had the chicken salad...and i was nice and quite filling actually..after dat, walked ard, hafiz got a new watch and i wanted to get a ringer tee and some accesoriess but in the end i din buy anything..and i told myself dat i cant spend anymore dis month cos of certain things which i'm not goin to say it here...but i do need to get some facial stuff and a new sports bag, now dat i'll be goin to the fitness centre on a regular basis.... We caught Hitch at 10pm...and i must say dat its a gd movie...i would give it 4 out of 5 stars.. will smith was cool and gave a gd performance...the plot is gd, although at some point in the movie, there was just abit too much talking but other den dat, it was gd...i recommend dis movie to everyone.... [There is only one happiness in this life, to love and be loved]

Fallin.....or Rising?

"Newcastle are a step away from makin it to the quarter finals of this year's UEFA Cup". Another win for us on foreign soil...wasn't really a comfortable win although the scoreline suggest otherwise..Woke up ard 1am dis morning to watch the match..it was tiring la but i'll do anything to watch my team play :p Went to work as usual and although today was a half day, i did quite a number of paperwork.. sianz...i thot can get to rest but work is work..so fuck it...went to suntec for lunch..we ate at Komshimbo, a japanese restaurant...it was a buffet spread and i must say its gd and we din have to pay a single cent :o..should go there again with u guys( u noe who u are)....although i wasn't suppose to be eating any buffet for a certain period of time, i did restrict myself to certain food la and the desserts were damn nice loh..the chocolate mousse, cheese cake(just to name a few) were damn nice..had abit la and din go overboard with the servings though...anywayz, my tummy is gone and nowadays when i eat, i dun feel bloated or 'fat' anymore...its all gd man...at last my fitness program is showing some gd signs...and i will only get better..c'mon... Anywayz, tml morning must wake up early and go to sembawang yatch club for a family day event organized by my camp...fuck...i have to wake early on a saturday morning...i feel so damn shagged already....haiz......oh ya, hope to mit up with ed, brian and hafiz tml..nitey ;) [Always do your best in whatever you're doing and be the best]

"Bad luck day"

After yesterday's off day, i din feel like goin back to camp(as usual)..Seriously, there's nothing dat motivates me to go to work..so anyway, the day started bad enough for me...had to go to camp in smart 4...dammit..i hate wearing dat and goin to work...it sucks..so reach camp, and had to some paperwork..needed to get some papers signed by our camp commandant, Mr Yan...i walk around the camp, sweating early in the morning, just trying to find him...fuck..after all dat, had to go to ALB to clear some documents...went there ard 10am, in a rover..wat the fuck..it was bad la...usually i go there in a pick-up or GP car, never a rover...so basically, it was total exposure to the heat, dust and dirt....shitty i tell u :( So, reach there, met simon and john(ALB ppl)...cleared the paperwork together with the crates of radio equipments together with some other petty issues la...it was almost 11 plus by dat time.. so i call ed the driver, faizal..and guess wat, he told me dat the rover's tyre was punctured..wat the fuck..i was like, it must happen today, right now, right here...fuck...he then told me dat he called for some help back in camp to send the necessary tools to fix the problem..ok, so i thot it wouldn't dat long...in the end, it took almost 2 hours and the problem wasn't fixed yet...i wun go into details bout wat happen cos i'm pissed off...all in all, i waited until 2pm until i was able to leave ALB.....it was only my few times and dis happened...the worst part is, i will goin to ALB every week loh....hope it wun turn to be as bad as today haiz..... Tomorrow will be half day for all of us at techstore cos we'll be goin to have lunch at dis japanese restaurant(forgot the name) and tso will be treating us..he's goin to ord on the 21st dis month.. i tink all of us are goin to miss him..cos he treats his men well without forcing or instructing(in a nicer way la) us to do work...alwayz giving us off when we request*(note dat i din say 'ask') for an off...he's the best la basically..the new tso, 2LT Daniel, who's on course, is the opposite...he's abit more garang la...but i hope it wun last and hope dat he'll be just like our 'goin to ord' tso... *fingers crossed* [A good fortune may forebode a bad luck, which may in turn disguise a good fortune]

Aching......

Woke up in the morning and i couldn't move my back...it was super aching loh...i felt so stiffed dat i decided not to go to work...my thighs were aching too but my back especially....wooah..i felt like lying on the bed the whole day...so basically i stayed home for a much needed rest...i dun understand..i've been working out for the past 3 months and after one ippt, i felt all the aching.. wassup with dat?!! My dad gave a gd massage on my back and felt quite relaxed but still it was aching..i couldn't really bend down....my guess is dat, the back muscles are aching and starting to 'grow'.....i hope so...and i hope its nothing serious also...Din do any workout today cos i thot it would be wise for me to rest so i tink i'll start running again tml la...need all the rest i can get...oh ya, pay is comin in tml and i hope to spent the money wisely...top of my shopping list for dis month is to get some facial stuffs...anything for a clean face...not too say dat my face is dat bad...its the occassional zits outbreak dat irritates me...so i need to get rid of dat permanently... Anywayz, there's nothing much to tok bout today...hope tml will be a meaningful(ya rite) day for me....cya guys... [Why care bout the NEGATIVE things people say to you when you know its not true]

Super super super super hot day!!!

It was sort of a gd day for me becos of the ippt test in the morning...but the weather kinda spoil the whole thing for me later in the day la anywayz i'll tok bout dat later....woke up ard 5 plus and got ready to go to work..didn't really had breakfast bcos i din tink there was time so i just drank a protein shake and off i went...felt kinda nervous but its just me la..i always get nervous for exams, test or wadever...went to 2 SIGS to do the ippt..did some warm ups and my first station was pull ups...couldn't find the motivation to do more so i did only 9 pulls up...from then onwards i felt comfortable and my tension was relieved...the 2nd station was shuttle run...my first timing was 10.2 secs..which was bad by the way..my legs was like twitching when i was getting to sprint..so i took again and my 2nd timing-- 9.9secs..much much better pheeew.... the sit ups station was a formality la...as usual, no problems there(did 50 sit ups btw) and the next station was standing broad jump...struggled thru out the tries(had 4 tries)..my first two was 216...not gd..it was just the passing mark...i wanted to get silver so i tried again..3rd try--221, still not gd enough...my last try--225..just nice for silver...lucky my persistent paid off... And the last station..2.4km run...my legs was feeling the cramps, my mind was on the edge, i was feeling naesueating......luckily, dino was running and boy, can dis guy run...he didn't look the runner type la but he's fit..he got abs too...he's a tennis player la basically...so he was my pacer and he ran in front of me....the first 1.8km, i couldn't have run better...dino said dat if we had over run dat part, we couldn't have make the last 600m...for me the last 200m was torturing.. i did't stop running although my mind told me to stop...my legs shaking..memories came flooding in....and at one point i felt like giving up...seriously....dat was so not me..i had never ran dat fast for 2.4....but i guess and the end of it, it was worth it...my timing was 10.09mins...not too bad i told myself but at the same time, i could have make it below 10mins...damn.....i had dino to thank la becos if not for him i might not have run dat fast...Should i continue and get an improved timing? We shall see but for now, i've gotten a silver and a hundred bucks richer... [PS: I'm still nursing an injury while doin the ippt] So, after the ippt, had a shower and did some work but was damn shagged la although i tried not to show it on my face :p my legs were killing me man...but i still felt gd la..there wasn't any lunch indent for us so we had to eat outside...we decided to order macdonalds...i noe, i should not have eaten dis but i only had the chicken foldover..dat is the most healthiest food u can find at macdonald's IMO....we had to collect the food at the gate near the guard room so basically we had to stand in the sun...fuck..it was fucking hot loh...i was like burning..sara was with me too so he felt the same thing...the heat was one kind la..and then ard 1 plus, tso called and said dat someone need to send some stores to 9 SIGS at selarang camp which is at pasir ris..oh my god!! dats like damn far loh...in the end i had to go...thru out the journey, i and the driver was exposed to the sun....wah!!! i was like fuck la....wats dis...total damage on the skin loh...so i had to have a 'DIY facial treatment'...its a gd thing i have the important things..facial foam, facial mask, anti-pigmentation cream.....no more sun pleeeez...when will it rain? pleeez..i dun mind if it rains everyday or if its cloudy...as long as there's no sun.....i'm like totally frazzled out *stoning* [Have confident in what you do and what u say because if not, you're just making an ass of yourself]

Time to step up....

A very lethargic monday i must say...din feel like doing anything and at one point i even told myself, 'wat the fuck am i doin here?' and 'I don't feel like comin to work anymore'...i kinda feel dat i am mentally drained.....the paperwork is comin up to me..i feel dat i need to remain focus on my work....god dammit...i just feel like slacking man...but i can't..i just need to get some inspirations from somewhere, someone, something...anything..pleez...to help me ease thru my time in the army... Came back home, feeling super lethargic..my mind was like telling me to rest and take it easy but my body tells me to work..haha...so i continued with my workout..was suppose to do it with alvin on mondays but he's on a fire fighting course for ten days...whenever i do my workout, i'd always prefer to do it with someone like alvin...we hav been working out together for a year plus and i feel comfortable as well as motivated when working out with him...hope to continue our workout regime together ah...soon hahaha.... So....i did my workout, lethargically(if there's such a word) with my heart set on the ippt tml morning...feeling kinda nervous but at the same time fired up...i hope to do my best and show my doubters wat i'm made of....oh man, i feel like kicking someone's ass....*feeling pumped* But i tink i may have a slight problem with the standing broad jump la...my personal best was 233cm..dat was in tekong..my 2nd personal best is 225cm....hope to achieve within dat range la.. but no matter wat happens, i will give 200% commitment and do my best...... [Always give a 100% in whatever you're doing because no matter what happens, you can look back and say that you have done your best and your commitment and desire shall never be underestimated]

We're going up....

Another precious win last nite over liverpool....dat win hav moved us to 11th in the league..well, 11th place is nothing to get excited about but its the manner in which we won the game dat impresses me...everything was perfect and everyone played a part in the win inlcuding Robert, who happens to be the match-winner...the position of the free kick he took was a mirror image of the free kick he took against liverpool during the 2002/03 season where he scored the winning goal..dat time we won by the same scoreline 1-0... Where do we go from here? There's only one way and dats up...its now up to the players to take us further and show wat we are made of...eversince bellamy left the club, i had low confident in the club's dealings with players....but i really hope that we can go from strenght to strenght...bellamy may never play for newcastle ever again and if souness can get things rite where kenny daglish and ruud gullit failed, then bellamy may just be overlooked by everyone at the club....will i? Shearer battles hard Today's weather was kinda gd la...woke up quite late today cos i slept late last night..hafiz who has been away for almost a month is back home..he called me in the morning...actually he was the one who woke me up la :p kinda surprised dat he came back cos i thot he would be back next week...but anywayz, he will graduate dis comin friday as a 3rd Sargeant...wah gd man..his pay is almost twice as much as my pay loh Anywayz, rested till 5 plus...did some adjustments to my blog and i hope its nice la but i guess abit more work is left to make it more nicer..Went for my usual running and i tink i did reasonably well...i could say dat my fitness is improving...i'm feeling more confident and fitter nowadays..i hope i will only get better..will be having ippt next week..i hope to do my best...perhaps silver? [A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step]

Its crunch time.....

Its newcastle vs liverpool tonite, not live though...same day telecast...it will be shown later ard 1am on star sports...surprisingly, they didn't take dis game live loh...such a big game and all dat.. So i have to cut myself from the net after 11 cos i want to see the match without knowing the results....hope we can beat liverpool cos it will definitely get us up the league.....i suppose if we lose tonite, then all the past results counts for nothing then...after last week's hard fought result, the players should be upped for tonite's game...c'mon lads... Basically today i rested at home after one week of intense training..finally get to slack abit but at the same time, avoiding snacking and eating too much haha....didn't feel like goin out today anyway, plus the weather was bad...one day it's raining and the next would be damn hot especially yesterday..woooo..i could feel my face burning....it was bad la but as usual, i had my necessary things to prevent damage to my face :p No money dis week but by next week, my pay is in and i hope to spend more wisely with wat i've got....well, some of my frens are buzy today...brian din get to book out today cos he's got guard duty(aaaaaw!!!), ed went to his uncle's wake, alvin had to go to work and the rest i got no idea....haven been contacting most of them la....like for example, komal is australia, studying..... but we do chat on msn la...hafiz, haven heard from him for quite some time after he left for thailand last month...i tink he should be back by next week.... Tml will be another rest day for me...sort of la cos i should be goin for a run again as i need to prepare myself for next tuesday's ippt....got the feeling dat my stamina and fitness is getting to its back......suddenly, my passion for running is coming back...i used to be a runner/sprinter when i was in primary skool..i won alot of medals dat time hahah bet u guys din noe dat ah.... wonder wat happen to all my medals hmm....oh, and by the way, i'm still carrying an injury ah and doesn't mean dat i'm running painless hor...my shin still hurts.....hope it doesn't worsened and hope dat i will get downgraded for good *fingers crossed* [Ignore what others say, focus on your own goals because this people are not going to help you in any ways]

Super super shagged but i feel great.....

After another useless day at work or camp(wadever), went back for another gym session with alvin....it was super tiring but worth it imo...we did the normal abs exercises, ran ard pandan and teban garden and did weights training...and i got another gd comment from alvin, as usual hahaha...he said dat my abs are showing and i could tell it myself too....i would like to think dat after all this time dat i have been working out and dieting, it has finally paid off...to a certain extent la...but i tink there's more work still to be done....i ain't sitting on my laurels just yet....i'm just getting started and this will just spur me on to do greater things....on the other hand, it is damn tiring and if someone who has weaker mental strenght than me would probably have given up....but not me, i have strenghten my mental power thru out the last few months and i hope it'll get stronger.....woooooo..well, guess i should be sleeping soon....tml will be resting day, hopefully can go out but trying not to la cos no money *sob sob*...cya guys....nitey..... [One who minds the feelings of others is no fool]

Why am i stressing myself out?

Been feeling kinda stressed out the last few days...this is due to me thinking too much bout alot of things...there are too many things dat have been sort of bothering me la...u noe, after almost 6 months(yup, its only 6 months), i've been contemplating bout wat i'm goin to do after i ord but at the same time, i've also been thinking bout wat should i be doin now, since i'm working 8 to 5 some of the ppl i noe are doin their degree and i'm not doin anything yet..anything worthwhile dat is....another example is sara from my store, who is my accounts upperstudy...he is in his second year of his degree..he took up 'Bachelor of Science(Hons) in blah blah blah( i forgot la) and we happen to talk bout it after i came up wif the topic..he told me dat even before he was enlisted, he did some research on wat degree he was looking for...for me, i was just slacking before i got enlisted....the idea of doin research on such stuff didn't cross my mind at all....i mean, i do tink about getting a degree la but perhaps later..now i'm sort of regretting it loh...should i take a degree now or later? hmm....Dat alone is stressing me out...but there are other things dat i'm pondering on....$$$$ obviously.. my physical being, health, work and any other thing dat u can associate me with :o U see, the problem wif me is, i tend to think too much bout alot of things...i tink some of my frens knows dat i'm like dat la...why should i stress myself out? why? i dunnoe..i just had to... well, dat probably explain why there was pimples on my face recently....haiz...there's nothing i can do or anyone else can do...i'm just being me..dats me....someone who tinks too much even if its the simplest of all things.... [Moderation, focusing and not letting anyone interfere with your plans are required to get ahead]

Time to galvanise...err myself?

Alrite..dats it..its time to move into 2nd gear....been working my ass of for almost 3 months now including the diet and definitely showing some signs of abs muscle growing....but its kinda on a dead constant...so now, its time i work even harder than before....the diet have been a pain in the ass la i'm sticking to it no matter...although on some occasion i tend to indulge in some chocolates but not too much(god, dis is sinful) so now i vow dat i shall not eat chocolate or any other form of candy, not even once a month....well, i could do all the talking i wan and it doesnt help if u talk the talk but not walk the walk....i'm mentally stronger than most of u guys think..i haven ate prata, pizza, burgers and wadever bad food u can think of for almost 3 months....i have come a long way since i was eating like mad and putting on weight at an alarming rate..i have lost quite a few kilos now and the gd thing is i haven loss much of my muscle mass although some ppl said dat i have become slimmer...which is gd also but at the same time it doesn't help.. at least i have alvin who would giv me honest opinion and at the same time, encouraging...i definitely wan to prove my doubters wrong(sons of bitches) I ain't giving up on my dream....uh uh, no way..... At work, everthing is still the same....ppl acting like jabronis and jerks, as usual....i hate working wif dis kind of ppl...they are totally discouraging to work with but of course, its not everybody la..only some who i tink are just bunch of shit heads who should just take a gd look at themselves bcos if i dun control my temper, i would just fuck them up...for now, i'm still trying to control myself emotionally bcos i can't crack up..i will be working wif these ppl for quite some time and its not a gd thing to damage any fragile relationships(as it is now) [Nothing should stand in your way when it comes to getting your work or duties out of the way; People are always trying to bring you down but just focus on what you are doing..There's no point in arguing with people you know won't budge]

Bad weather...and feeling shagged....

Din feel like writing today but wat the heck.....woke up early today to catch the first bus to camp sianz....had an annivesary thingy today and there were other units dat came to our camp...and got to see some of my storeman course mates again....it was nice to see some of them again... well, imo, this whole thing was a total waste of time...most of us waited for the refreshments only la...and wat a refreshments it was...there were lots of gd food...there were chicken wings, dim sums, curry puffs and lots more...and there was dis dessert which was damn gd....it was sort of an ice cream packed in a mini crossaint and it just melts in ur mouth..i just couldn't resist it man..hope i can find dat outside hehe...but shit la, i'm not supposed to eat all dis loh...shitz..so i told myself i had to go for a run later la...it was a half day, so after lunch(which is very bad) i met up with alvin at his place just to chill out...the weather was bad, i was sweating and i looked like fuck loh....i just cant stand it if i go out and sweat, not looking gd and not feeling gd :( We played winning eleven 8 on his x-box and i must say its gd..the graphics and the players, they were all cool....and as usual, i played better than alvin ahahha...but i the end i won two games and he won two games(damn taiko btw) :p Then i decided to make a move cos i wanted to go for a run..but then alvin said dat since we did some running yest and gym, its better to rest today...so i was like, ya hor...furthermore i still feel the ache on my chest and back.....so i decided to just stick to abs workout for today..i'm still wondering when will i ever get the washboard abs dat i've been struggling to get...haiz... no matter wat, i will continue to work hard and dun let anyone or anything get me down... no way man..no way...... [You can make a difference to the people you meet throughout your life. You have so much to give and, because of that, you will receive in return]