Still looking, still searching

When there's no love in town This new century keeps bringing you down All the places you have been Trying to find a love supreme A love supreme Come and live a love supreme Don't let it get you down Everybody lives for love After a chain of events(well, not really), i just realised that i have a lot to learn about love...i'm still the young naive boy that i was 10 years ago... But i'm turning 23 in 7 months time. Isn't that still consider young? Well, i do look young.....can??

Happenings

It's been awhile since i last updated my blog. One week to be precise. Not too long isn't it? Yup..i thought so too. Anyways, where should i start? hmm.....ok..the past weekend have been quite happening for me. Went out on friday, saturday and sunday. Perhaps its nothing to some of you but it has been a while since i last did that. Fri 25th Nov Friday night. Destination Sentosa, Costa Sands Resort. Objective Christian's b-day chalet...Quite happening stuffs here. Got pretty high and made a lot of new friends. Had vodka, Jim Beam and Chivas. A good thing i had just nice amount of drinks or else i would thrown up like some of the guys. Damn shag la.. Haven't been drinking for a few months and the first vodka shot i had was like a smack to the face. But it felt great...I had fun though.....will try to post some pics if i could get some or if there is any in the first place. Sat 26th Nov Came back home late and slept around 4 plus. Woke up at 9.30am and got ready to meet Alvin for our workout. Thought of cancelling it but what the hell!! Surprisingly, i got through my routine workout without any problems. But seriously, if you are going for drinking the night before, and not having enough sleep after that and going for workout the next day, my advice is not to do what i did. It is not good for your skin(obviously i'm referring to your face). Went for makan after workout at Jurong Point Banquet. Good food they got here. And something funny happened there. I was queuing up to buy chicken rice(very nice btw) and one of the malay auntie talked to me in malay and before i could speak another auntie told her that "dier bukan melayu la(well, technically i am but..)"...anak mat salleh ni". I was like acting blur loh......but seriously, its normal really. I'm a mix after all and that i do have european blood. So, i guess that explains it then =P At night, went to Zouk with my gd friend Jaja and his group who i happen to know also la. Met up with Kelvin and his group of friends. And a special mention must go out to the 3 girls who was with him. They looked great man *slurps slurps* Well, make new friends like i did on friday night. A good thing i got the invites so i got into Zouk for free hehe. Sounds cheap right? i know but who cares..... Spend around 2 hours there and i had the worst night of my clubbing experience. I just felt that i shouldn't have been there in the first. haiz....... Perhaps, its my mood swings but i suddenly in the mood to club and so i went to the back of the club and started emoing..... Sun 27th Nov I forgot to mention this above but on saturday night when i was getting ready to go Zouk, i found out that i left my facial cleanser at the gym. That thing cost me 40 bucks man. Sheeesh....and so, i panicked. I cant do without my facial cleanser. But, a gd thing i had some Zirh samples. Pheeeew........... So,i decided to get a new one on sunday. Met up with Anthony and had a walkabout at Jurong Point..again(its near my place can?) Bought myself this Zirh Starters Kit. Cost me 90 bucks but its worth it la. I don't mind spending so much on such quality facial stuffs.... Had some stuffs at Billy Bombers too. And i think the malt drinks are damn nice sia.. Sugar, we're goin down from the
album From Under the Cork Tree
by Fall Out Boy

Let the music heal your soul

Spend the weekend, sitting at home, miserably and thinking about life. My life. Yeah, that's what i'm capable of doing if i got nothing to do. Just sit at home and pondering about what kind of shit hole i'm living in. But i'm glad music was there(and still is thankfully) to help me see(or feel) that it ain't all too bad. It helps to calm me down, and soothes my soul and give me a peace of mind. Thank god for music......... We Believe from the
album The Chronicles of Life and Death
by Good Charlotte

Quater-Life Crisis

When i read my friend's blog Komal about Quarter-Life Crisis, it hit me. I realised that i'm goin through this crisis. And she couldn't have said it better bout it. Most of us are going through this "being twenty something" syndrome and maybe not all of us are going through this crisis. Well, good for them i guess. Feeling insecure, confused, lost. And i still can't believe that i'm turning 23 in 7 months time. And like Komal said, you start to realise things about yourself that you don't know and don't like. And then, you start to panic because you suddenly think about where you will be in one or two years time. Then you freak out because you don't even know where you are now. Friends. People who play an important role especially when you're in your early twenties. You start to have doubts over your relationship with them and you ask yourself whether they are your friends? Your true friends? Someone who will be there when you need them the most. Or is it? They are probably thinking the same thing about you. You worry about work, money and love. We look at what we are doing now and i'm sure most of us are not even close to what we thought we be doing. Money? hmm... I'm reading a book on "The Power of Positive Productivity" and i'm still trying to understand it. And don't get me started about love. I'm almost 23 and i'm yet to fall in love. The only person i've fallen in love with is myself..... You feel that you are stucked somewhere in time and feel that nothing is going your way. And sometimes, when we feel we want to go somewhere and achieve something, we have to start from the very bottom and that freak you out. You compare youself with others and you judge yourself more than usual which in turn makes you paranoid. One minute you feel happy and the next minute you cry. Then you feel scared, lost and confused. You can't make up your mind about things and then you start thinking about your past, clinging on to it with all your might. You then realise that you don't want to move time. Emotions run high and dangerously. You talk to people about it, thinking that they understand you and that they are willing to listen to it but then again, you start to think that these people may not give a fuck about you, your life and your problems. But then again, they may give a fuck too.... [What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out ~ Komal;Thursday, November 03, 2005] Talk from the
album X & Y
by Coldplay

Fuck Trump

Was watching the apprentice last night and the finale was disappointing especially when the winner was announce. I thought the streetsmart(which is equivalent to a poly student) was going to win it but like most of us would think, Mr Donald 'with the wig' Trump wanted a booksmart to win it all along. I should have guessed it loh. Bastard sia..... We all know that the streetsmarts were better than the booksmarts. And Tana (the streetsmart) should have won it. By a mile i must add....sheesh If Mr Trump wanted a booksmart in his books, then why did we have a streetsmart vs booksmart competition in the first place. Stupid.......bitterly disappointed loh... Let Love Be Your Energy from the
album Sing When You're Winning
by Robbie Williams

One month

It has only been one freaking month and i felt like it has already been few months since i last did my workout. Damn shag sia........ Need to start again and that's what i did. Did 200 push ups and my whole body was aching. Will be heading down to the gym tomorrow with Alvin. I'm also building up on my fitness level for my football practices. And her birthday is this coming sunday.............what shall i do?? An Honest Mistake from the
album The Bravery
by The Bravery

It's time to reassess the situation

Now that the fasting month is done and over with, it is time to set certain things straight for myself. Seeing how this fasting month has done to my body system, i think priority is to re-establish the system to what is was before. And i haven't been doing any workout for the past month(as a result, i feel very very miserable)i will resume my workout. No excuse.... And no more late nights except on weekends perhaps. Time to build up again. And now that i can meet up with Alvin often for workouts, i'm sure things will go back to normal. To tell the truth, i feel like fuck right now.....mentally and physically. Haiz....dunnoe la..been thinking too much about things...Just need someone to put my mind at ease and tell me that everything is ok...... Actually, i don't feel like celebrating hari raya really. Don't have the festive mood. And this thing will just come and go. Oh well................. Faded from the
album No One Does It Better
by Soul Decision