Nothing else matters

This that i wish for starting from today until end of this year. 1. Get downgraded from pes B to pes C or even better, pes E :) 2. Hope that i won't be returning to tekong for a combat bmt recourse; modified bmt recourse would be fine though. 3. Hope that Bellamy stays at Newcastle. 4. Hope to be zit free by end of this year. 5. Hope that the end of year surprise will turn out to be a good surprise.

Uncertainty

Finally, will be returning to camp tomorrow after a week off from army life. A great feeling right but not really for me. Been feeling down a week ago but then feeling great only to be let down but a bad news(will come to that later) After seeing a doctor at NUH about the boil under my armpit(it hurts by the way), i was told to come down for a surgery on this coming thursday. In the meantime, i will have to swallow around 20 pills of anti-biotics and painkillers. It sucks. The feeling of eating pills and drinking lots of water just sucks. Anyways, i hope the surgery goes well and hope its not a painful as the on my back. Yeap, thats right. I undergo a similar operation to remove a boil at my back. Th only difference was that the boil bursts before i went for the operation. The doctor had to clean in up and make a hole so that they could really clean it. So basically i had a hole on my back. sigh...... This past week wasn't really a holiday but more of a reflection of how things have been going for me in the army. And there's really not much positives that i could conjure up. Coming to the bad news that i was going to reveal: I got a call from my camp that i will have to return to tekong for a bmt recourse. Well, its combat bmt, the three months(sort of) stay(well, book out on saturdays) :( Eversince i got out of course from the previous bmt, i was waiting to be downgraded and now here i am, waiting to return to tekong for another miserable life. But uh-uh, i ain't going back there as a recruit. I will be downgraded before returning for a modified recourse which is basically chalet, from what i come to know about. I can't go back there and go through that again. I don't want to. Its just not what i want. Everything was going so well for me. But one piece of news just encapsulated the previous 8 months in the army. There is this air of uncertainty, un-settledness, fear in me. Initial difficulties overcomed, the promise of something good to happen but ultimately heartache and disappointment with the fates always seeming to conspire against me. [Man is the main source of his own misery]

Side projects

I have created two more blogs. Blogs on health & Fitness and Newcastle united. Due to these changes, my current blog will be only for my personal stuffs while other things will be incoporated into the two new blogs which i have created. The health & fitness was started by me and hafiz. Do check out these blogs. You can click on the link which i have placed under "side projects". Cheers...

Someday, Somehow....

The fa cup semi final pitted ourselves(newcastle obviously) against man united(manure is what we like to call them). Optimism was put aside after friday morning destruction at the hands of sporting lisbon that send us out of the uefa cup once again. Morale was low, key players injured and under-performing by most of the players. At the end of the 90 minutes, we were served a damp squid of a performance by the team in black and white. Very disappoiting and heart breaking result for all associated with newcastle united football club. The manner in which we lost the game was just too depressing and hard for the toon army to take. We've endured years of runs without trophy(its been 36 years since we last won something)
Dejected Newcastle has been a part of my life for almost 15 years now. We've been through the hard times and long roads and also the highs of the club. Whenever we lost, i felt like crying. When we win, there is always the tears of joy. Nobody can doubt the supporters of this club. No one. We are the best supporters in the world. No doubt.
Toon Army I'm looking forward to the new season as i can't wait for this season to end. It has been a season of lots of promise and expectations but it turned to be another season of under-performing and under-achieving. The toon army will, however continue our dying support for the team no matter how much we crticised them. I just know that somehow, someday we will do it and make the world hear us. C'mon lads.....

Pimple, Acne and Oily Skin

Been feeling kinda depressed for a few days or i think its almost two weeks. Been feeling kinda pimply recently. There's a pimple or err acne outbreak. There's pimple of the most prominent part of my face loh. Can someone help me? Aaarrrgggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate going out if i don't feel good about myself. If i don't feel good, that means i don't look good. That means i have to stay at home at all cost. But that is not the case because i have to go to work or actually report to camp. Fuck. If it weren't for this stupid army, i would have just stayed at home until every pimple is cleared up. No matter how long it takes. That's why i have decided to take some drastic actions. Okay ls, not some but A drastic action. I went to this facial saloon for men, which is called Face Of Man, recommended by a friend of mine. I think the price is quite reasonable and frankly speaking, the treatment i had(purifying treatment) was quite good. Bought some facial products as well. Hope to go back for another treatment and hopefully get rid of my oily skin as well as all the unwanted pimples, acnes, whiteheads, blackheads and whatever shit *feeling agitated*
[Problems with skin should not be left unattended. Limitations will be due to something you neglected to take care of in the past]

Hmm.....

Haven't been blogging for the past three days. Kinda lazy la since i've just recovered from the flu and fever. Feeling better nowadays, kinda energetic but not really 100%. Not really feeling great la. Not feeling good in terms of how i look. I know i know, a vain pot. That's what some people told me. I tend to get so vain that i think even the mirror would crack. Anyways, the new tso is doing quite okay although things could get better. He's not really a motivational speaker or in my own words, not a leader, period. Some of us in the store could have done a better job being a tso. For me and sara, we couldn't be too bothered about the new tso's way of doing things. Because for us, we just have to do our work like always and also that we know more about the work than the tso so i guess we need to teach him a few things here and there. There's always a so-called meeting after lunch where tso would talk cock(this is what sara think la) IMO, the meeting are a waste of time and there's nothing much for storeman to do(not me though) except laze around and do work only when people are drawing stores. For me though, i will also laze around but try not to make it obvious if there's no work but if there's work to do, i will do it, no questions ask and clear it without delay :) One more thing that is kinda bothering me nowadays is the weather. I've noticed that it has been rather peculiar. Its hot on one day and it rains on another day and especially at night too. I'm not sure if its bothering you guys but i'm feeling edgy about it. Is something going to happen or what? *fingers crossed* I hope not. Well one thing for a fact is that more and more people are falling sick. Its bad because the weather just makes everyone sick. The hotness of the sun is just too unbearable. I'm not sure whether its really hot or is it just me but i'm darn sure that its freaking hot when it touches your skin or mine?! Anyways, i hope the weather changes for the better over the next few days...or weeks...or months....geeeez

Sick

Been feeling sick the last few days. Got knock down by flu and sore throat on friday night. Felt okay during my workout on friday but by the time i reached home, i could feel that i was going to be sick. Sianz.....
Flu sucks I hate falling sick. Haven't been getting sufficient rest for the past week. Basically, from monday to friday, i did workouts. Went to CF on monday, wednesday and friday. Went for a run on tuesday and thursday. IMO, its okay to train throughout the week but getting enough rest or sleep is very important. I only slept 6 hours or less every day last week, which is very bad for me because for me, i need rest, lots of it. That is why i'm sick right now. Actually, i'm feeling better today. Went out with alvin and the others to buy food for the bbq at alvin's place. My condition yesterday was only 50%. Had a terrible running nose and my throat hurts. Had alot of food during the bbq, which is very bad. It just ruins my fitness and diet program. But i felt better eating all this than i was a couple of months ago. Seriously, i'm feeling fitter than i was about 5 months ago. Perhaps not really yesterday la since i wasn't feeling too good. Anyways, no more bbq for me after all this. I just need to get alot of rest this coming week so that i can resume my fitness conditioning program on friday, hopefully. Won't be going to CF tomorrow with alvin(sory bro) and won't be working out for the next three days until i'm 100% recovered. I won't take any chances now because i think it would be stupid to resume training asap.
Time to get rid of the flu Couldn't meet up with edmund and brian yesterday. Sorry guys. Well, hoped they had fun. Hope to catch with them next week. Pay is in. Need to clear some stuffs(its not debts!!), so i guess i won't be spending much this month although i need to buy some groceries at GIANT. Anyways, i hope everyone will be sick-free this coming week. *coughing coughing* [Always get 7 hours of sleep every night]

Boiling Point

What a fucking hot day. That's all i've got to say about today. Whenever its hot, i will just bitch and moan about it. Because it makes me feel good. Most of my friends knows me all too well. That's why they won't ask me to stop complaining or bitching.
Is it hot in here or is it just me? Anyways, another day with lots of work. It wasn't too bad la but i just hate going out of camp to collect equipments or clear documents. I rather stay in the office and do work in the air con. And that is what most of us would need if today's weather continues for the next few days.
Boiling point?!! I hate going out of the house when it's hot or in this case, scorching hot. It was really that hot. I just can't stand it. Just hoping that in the next few days, the weather would be good. And to think, it was raining yesterday. Geez.... Didn't update the blog yesterday because i came back late. When to CF with alvin to do some workout. He just got the free two weeks membership. He was actually very impressed with the fitness centre and also expressed his desire to become a member once he has a stable income. Its not that i have a stable income myself but it's just about right to keep me afloat very month :( The new tso will be coming in tomorrow. Not sure how's its going to workout. Hope everything would turn out to be ok. Haven't been contacting some of the guys. Perhaps everyone is so busy right now. Ok la, i think that's all for now. Will be back tomorrow to continue my bitching lol. Good night guys ;) [PS: Eyes was half closed and head spinning around while writing the blog. I would like to apologise if there's any nonsense or lame stuff which i have written]

Operation Alpha

Not much work at camp today. Yesterday was kinda slack too. You know why? Because the moment work is given to me, i would finish it asap, without delay. That's why i'm free right now. Well, for a while la because tomorrow will be a hectic day. We'll talk about that in a while. And a special mention must go out to the weather report who seems to get it right(finally) for the past few days. IMO, the weather has been excellent. No sun, no sweat. Wonder what's the weather in tekong? Spend most of the time doing some simple paperwork which is required to be done everyday actually. But i could hardly break a sweat on that. Spend some time watching dvd at HF store with some of the guys namely rasyid, sara and jaja. The man behind all the technical work in HF is rasyid. He did all the work so that we all could enjoy watching movie and tv. Hahaha, i won't go into details on that. Anyways, we watched "Jackass". Its a damn hilarious show where the main characters perform stupid and lame stuffs that can tickle your funny bone. But i'm sure girls won't enjoy the show la :) So guys, its a must watch *thumbs up* Reach home kinda late today but i still went for a jog. Had to la because i haven't been running for a week now. Its bad and i don't feel good about it. So i guess i should resume my running. Had a light dinner and couldn't stop thinking about tomorrow's work. Will be going down to ALB with most of the guys to collect tonnes of signal equipments. And i really mean tonnes. There will be a lot of equipments as well as complacentcy. So i need to do a good and efficient job. Its time to show what i can do. This is make or break for me because my reputation is on the line here. Whatever i do tomorrow will provide a lasting impression on ALB. Well, i said all this because whenever i stepped out of camp, there's always bad luck. Actually, all that had happened hasn't got to do anything with me but what's around me. I'm not going to waste my time and dwell on that. So, hope tomorrow will be a great day. Will be going to ALB in the morning. Not sure what time it'll finish though. Just hoping for good luck tomorrow *fingers crossed* Operation Alpha will commence in approximately 8hours and 20 minutes *tick tock tick tock....*

Free Love

Been kinda lost the last couple of months. Lost in terms of sexuality and love. I can't explain what i'm feeling nowadays. Still trying to find my true inner self. Having weird thoughts lately. Having weird feelings and emotions too. Why worry about your love life? I'm not. But you do tend to wonder when will that "someone" is coming? My point here is, you don't have to be in a relationship to find love. Love is everywhere. But can we see them? We can only find that love ourselves. This is what i call free love........... If you've been hiding from love I can understand where you're coming from If you've suffered enough I can understand what you're thinking of I can see the pain that you're frightened of I've been running like you But why am i running scared I'd hope you understand I've been searching for truth And I haven't been getting anywhere Hey there, you've got to take this moment Don't let it slip away Let go of your complicated feelings There's no price to pay We've been running from love And we don't know what we're doing here No we don't know And I'm only here to bring you free love Let's make it clear that this is free love No hidden catch, No strings attached It's just free love............

Total Chaos

What the... Who's punching who? Pulled away by fellow players Off you go son What the fuck!! Big Al urges his team on Bad day at the office for the ref Post match "apologising' conference

Black Day?!

Woke up very early today to visit ed at SAFTI OCS. Met up brian first before joining ed's mum and his brother, Stan at boon lay. Took the shuttle bus there and it only took around ten minutes. It was quite near surprisingly. Anyways, OCS is just the place to be in the army. Perhaps, not in terms of the training la but the whole outlook of the place. The facilities are just top notch and even the cookhouse looks cool. And i even thought they bought the tables and chairs from IKEA. It was nice to finally get to see ed again after like almost 3 weeks. I think he looked fitter and he looks great in the smart 4 uniform. Getting into OCS is hard because most of the cadets there a scholars. Bunch of geeks and nerds.Well, smart and intelligence geeks & nerds i presume lol. He will get to book out next weekend so can meet him up then. Brian by the way is flying off to Taiwan soon for a gruelling 3 weeks training before coming back for his POP. Finally he will be a sargeant. Hafiz also will be very busy because there will be a new batch of recruits coming in next week and he won't be back until 24th of this month. Everyone is busy and i'm trying to keep myself busy also. Trying to do things to keep my mind fresh and in check because in the army, you can't afford to slack too much. Its bad for the brain. Going back to last night's event at St James Park. It was an ugly scene to tell you the truth. It was truly a sad day for everyone connected with the club. I'm sure some of you have heard about the brawl between dyer and bowyer. The referee had a bad at the office, we played well but didn't score. 3 penalty appeals turned down while villa got two penalties on their own. David O'Leary(villa's manager) even had the cheek to say the better team won by a mile, which i think is perfect bullnuts. Anyways, i've posted some pics of the incident. Check it out. As for me, i got nothing to say but if the team continues to play like this in the next few weeks, then we can say goodbye to the FA Cup and the UEFA Cup :( [Little angel go away, come again some other day. The devil has my ears today & i will never hear a word you say]

Anger Management

A good saturday morning to wake up to. Had problem waking up though. The weather was just superb and it made waking up early harder. Anyways, had my usual breakfast which i don't miss and waited for hafiz to give me a call when he booked out. So, had lunch at home and went out to meet hafiz. Went to beach road to get my rank sewed on my No.4 uniform. Yeap, that's right. I have been promoted to lance-corporal. Yeah, nothing much to happy about :/ Then we went to Bugis for dinner and did some window shopping because i might be coming down at the end of this month to do some shopping :) While doin all that just now, i observed that most of us can't control our temper. Sometimes things like this happens when you're are at the scene for example, while we walking around bugis junction, a couple pushing their baby on a pram was momentarily blocked by a guy who didn't happen to noticed the couple behind him. From where i was standing, i could hear the husband saying excuse me in a stern manner. Ok, at least he said excuse me. But its the way he said it. It's not nice la. C'mon, if he wanted to be courteous, he wouldn't have said that in that manner. And also, yesterday while i was working out at CF, while waiting to use a machine, i happen to noticed a lady who was waiting impatiently to use another machine, asking another lady whether she can used it. Nothing with wrong with that right. But if you happen to be there with me, you would know that the way she asked was just as bad as the guy i talked about just now, if not worse. And also, while we were eating at LJS, there was another another lady who was bringing her food outside because she was sitting in the smoking area together with her collegues. But she couldn't open the door since she was holding on to the tray(you know how it works when you're at a fast food joint) And it took quite some time(roughly 10 secs ) before one of her collegues helped her out. But at the end of that, i happen to hear that she said something that didn't go down well with her collegue. Me and hafiz was like, what the hell. I'm sure some people there saw and heard what happened. Well, i got 2 problems with all that. Firstly, why must people be so like that? And secondly, why is all this happening around me? Personally, i do get angry at times. But not because of things like that. Although i must admit that at times, i do over react over small stuff. You know what, on second thought, i don't think i over react over petty stuffs. That is outrageous. Only when its really a big a deal, then i would explode. But no matter what i would still control my temper. When no one has a problem with me, i won't have a problem with anyone. But if anybody has a problem then you can bet your ass i got a problem with them. Anyways, without absolutely no idea of what happened at the newcastle game just now, the theme continues. Dyer and bowyer was sent off for fighting. What the fuck.................. Total chaos I'm totally speechless. Less said about the match. What the hell is going on? [Temper is the one thing you can't get rid of, by losing it] - Dr Buddy Rydell(qoutes from Anger Management)