Rest in peace my friend

Got a shock and sad news this morning. My friend and fellow newcastle supporter has passed on. Although i didn't really know him that well, we did meet up, played football and watch our beloved newcastle together. Above all, he is a nice guy. He will always be with us and i'm sure he would have been proud of us, the newcastle fans for the support we gave our team, as always, just as we are proud of him and his NUFC passion & friendship he gave us all. Rest in peace my friend.... 4FJ - 4EVER 1981-2005 We shall never forget

Burnt out

Felt totally burnt out today, not physically though. These are trying times for me, mentally of course. Ok la, perhaps i'm exagerrating but the truth is the work load is just getting from bad to worse. Now that LRI is around the corner(less than 2 weeks) my work is still not fully completed. Probably, have to start staying back from next week onwards. Bo pian one loh....Must finish all my designated work, by hook or by crook....and i'm still getting peanuts for all this shit... Somemore, my newcastle team are in the worse shit ever. Losing this morning to Bolton just makes me lose confidence and morale. Call me crazy or stupid but i'm just so into my beloved newcastle that i would cry if we lose. And the situation now just makes me lose faith in the team. If you still don't get it.....basically, if newcastle loses, i feel like fuck and my morale drops to an all time low. If we win, i feel on top of the world. This is what i call a true blue black and white fan....if you're an avid soccer reader(or a newcastle fan) please visit my other blog. So, to release my anger and frustration, i decided to go for a run in the evening. And boy i felt better. And stronger in fact......I just love running man..it just makes you feel better and stronger about things...Sprinting lagi best...anyone care to sprint with me? But i have to warn you first..i can sprint..and i mean, I CAN SPRINT!!!! Excerpts from Tekong diary -- August 24th 2004 Sunday Had a great sleep last night. Surprisingly. Because such good night sleeps don't come along often when you're here. And this morning's breakfast was excellent. It was nice to have good food especially after doing 5BX which includes running early in the morning. In the afternoon, we had a 3km run and it felt great. It's perhaps abit premature to say this but i think i can get use to this. After the run, we has our first foot drill at the parade square. Of course, we bath first before that. Pheeew.... Anyways, the parade square is considered to be a 'sacred' place. A sacred place it may be but it doesn't protect us much from the weather. It was fucking hot. My face was burnt. Definitely need sunscreen protection.

Sore eyes

Spend half a day in a sickbay, or isolation bay, as written on the door. All because of one bloody sore eye. All of days it has to be today. During such busy period, i have to take mc, 2 days somemore. Knn..... And worse still, the MO say it may take up to a week to recover. What the hell...i thought hope that i will recover by the weekend cos i got plans loh.. Its not like i don't like to take mc but if its on a less hectic period, i would savour it. But not right now.....seriously... So Cold from the album
We are not alone by
Breaking Benjamin

The beginning of the end? Nah.....

Excerpts from Tekong diary -- Aug 21th 2004 Saturday It is officially the start of the PTP phase. Last night however wasn't a great experience at all, having to go through the night without much sleep. And its no coincidence either. Like my sargeants said, "first night always like that one". In the morning, we did 5BX. I was never used to doing exercises early in the morning. Felt like crap la. Then we proceeded to the cookhouse for breakfast and sweating like fuck. Must get use to that too. All the sweating and dirt and whatever. Basically, today is quite relax. Didn't have much physical activities. There were lectures and some minor stuffs like assembling our SBO(standard battle order) and shit. And special mentions goes out to the weather. Superb... Anyways, bout my bunkmates.....in bed order Shafiq: equivalent to my secondary school mate, Erfie. Quiet and look decent but i think he's a direct opposite of that. Chun Long: A newcastle fan like me. Doesn't talk much but definitely a good guy. Shankar: A nice guy. Abit kancheong at times and its only 2 days in. Geez... Irritating when he talks though. My buddy.. Ramdan: Aka Rambo. We gave him the nick. Abit of a feisty character although small built but fit i must say. Super loud all the time. Nigel: Really clicked well with him. A cool guy with an attitude. Gonna be good buddies with me. Fuad: What more can i say? My long lost primary school mate. Fate brought us together and i will make full use of it. Kenny: Ah beng. The face like @!$%&^$#. No more comments Yue How: Another one that i really clicked with. Big size, wth a small heart like a gentle giant. Full of jokes, humor and himself. Julian: The baby of the bunk. Only 18 but look more mature than me. Studies in America and speaks good english, no american slang though. Nice guy. Allen: Looks very cute with his botak head and specs. Haven't really talked to him much. Eric: Mr fit. My equivalent to Vincent Ng's character Ricky in 'Heartlanders'. LIKe totally..... Well, they were the closest friends i had in tekong. I will never meet such a happening group of guys. We were in fact the most happening bunk in platoon 1 as i would come to find out. Wish my stay there would have been longer but too bad, i had to leave them earlier. Really missed them so much. But whatever time i spend with them i will keep them in my memories. Cya guys around and don't lose contact :)

One year

How time flies. It has already been a year since the day i was enlisted. It is an old cliche actually, talking about ns, this and that. So, to recognise this special occasion(i like, can?) i have decided to include in my blog postings, excerpts from my diary which i wrote whilst i was in tekong. Yup, i started a diary(believe it)... So from now onwards, i will post excerpts or the whole entry for the days i spent in tekong everday(i'll try). I don't think anyone would actually write or even thought of writing a diary, especially in tekong. But i did. At that time i was like thinking to myself, this is a once in a lifetime experience. Perhaps i should keep a record of it. So i did just that.... Excerpts from Tekong diary ---- Aug 20th 2004 Friday Finally, the day has come. I actually thought that it would never happen. After my last semester exams, i felt lost. Everything had been 'happy-go-lucky' for me. Nothing is prepared for what i'm going to go through here. When we reached tekong, we were group into a seating area with the sargeants shouting at us for not tucking in. Reality sets in. Regimental life, here we go.... Soon after, i got a letter stating that i'm posted to Whiskey Coy. After spending some last time with mum and dad, they left and i was left alone with a group of guys, not knowing what is in store for all of us. Its not like i'm not used to being alone but this is different. Totally.... Collected this huge bag aka duffel bag and at the same time having a vague idea that the bag i thought i was suppose to collect was the old ali baba bag. So after doing all the necessary but minor stuffs, we had our haircuts. Felt like shit after that. I hated being botak. And i was told that i have to report to bunk 3, platoon 1, bed 4. Went into the bunk to find 3 other guys looking clueless, like myself. Who isn't when you're stranded on an island, not knowing what to do? One of them was Nigel. Just a few sentences and we clicked. The other two guys were Chun long and Yue how. Didn't talk much but then again, its only the first day. Suddenly, without absolutely no idea that i would meet someone i know from a long time ago, i was in for a surprise. My primary school mate, Fuad made his way into the bunk and the both of us looked at one another and was like, jaw hanging, didn't know whether to feel surprise or happy or what. We greeted each other like long lost brothers. Unbelievable.... In fact, i've met him in poly a few times before and back then, that was the first time i've seen in almost 9 years. And now, he is my bunkmate. Irony or fate? Fate of course. Or at least that's what i think it is. Things are going to be fine and recalling a scene from 'Army Daze' when Sheik Haikel character Johari said "Everything here is ok. If we all help each other along the way, lagi best. The training here is not so teruk, ya know!!" You never know...Gd night..

Smoking no-no

All this week, i've been smelling smoke. Smoke from cigarrettes la, vehicles la, the haze la, people burning papers incense la and whatever la. Damn fuck la... My nose and eyes are very sensitive one. A. My eyes will get very irritable and confirm get dry eyes one. B. I will sneeze like there's tomorrow like that. Even sitting at home, typing this out i can still smell smoke. Chee bye... I can only come up with one good reason why i'm smelling smoke nowadays. This is because of the ban on smoking which will take effect in 2007. So, everyone all the smokers are smoking till their their hearts content. I think that is the best reason i can think off..for now.....And furthermore, the haze situation isn't going to change for the better anytime soon. And look at the weather la. Fucking horrible leh.. You can read more on the ban on smoking here. For non-smokers, read here too. This is good news. And more good news. Was reading an article on 'Zouk for a facelift' and came across a small article on 'No separate rooms for smokers'. No more smoking in clubs anymore. Is this good news or what? For all smokers, too bad. muahahahaha....... Just a general info you should know... ....a study published in the Singapore Medical Journal showed that health-care payments and lost production due to smoking-related disease and death amounts up to $839 million. Tourist from the
album Tourist
by Athlete

Confinement Sucks

Luckily i was able to book out after staff parade and that around 10pm. Spend the whole yesterday doing nothing but fatigue duty. Ok la, not the whole day la but still, it was boring. And worse, i was alone. Made some new friends with some of the trainees who were doing guard duty. Damn shag la...Doing guard duty on the weekend sucks too. But at least, i was in good company. Staying in the guard is also damn fuck up. The place looks like its infested with bugs. Very bad indeed. Too bad, i can't load up the picture i took with my camera phone. Not until someone i buy the infra-red cable. But anyways, trust me, it is bad.. Feel like living in a freaking prison cell. Somemore, the camp is damn quiet and looks spooky too. Wah, next week still got one more confinement. Chee Bye........... Open your eyes from the album Proud like a God by Guano Apes

Haze Hazard

I'm sure you guys have heard about the hazy situation in Malaysia which is worsening by the minute. We are not really affected.....yet. And as usual, the indonesians are fully partly blamed for all this. However, looking at the weather patterns for the past week or so, something tells me that things might just be worse. Yesterday was fucking hot. And the hotness is different from the normal weather we had before. Its just so fucked up. And today, it was dark the whole day and it rained in the late afternoon and it was super warm that you can't walk around without breaking a sweat. The situation in Malaysia is so bad that schools had to be closed for a few days and from some reports, there was even hail. Unbelievable. What's more unbelievable is that i will be reporting back to camp on saturday morning to serve my confinement. That's unbelievable considering that i'm just a accounts clerk(noticed that i say accounts clerk bcos i'm not a normal clerk) Anyways, environment officers here a keeping a close tab on the situation here and that there is a chance that things might turn out like Malaysia. Perhaps i'm getting some signs that we might suffer that same weather trauma like Malaysia. My eyes, for example, are getting more and more dryer and it is super duper irritating. The weather patterns of course. And especially life back in camp. Everything seems to be at a standstill that you can hear the sound of crickets. Not to mention the people that have to report back to camp for work and complaining about this and that. Hmm, seems like normal like that. Ok, lets take a look at the current situation in Malaysia.... This is damn bad la. Imagine this in Singapore. Everyone will have to walk around in a mask. Damn you indonesians scums.....

Only Tuesday leh

After lazying around the house for the whole day and after watching the National Day Parade on tv, i just realised that it is only tuesday and i have to go back to work tomorrow. What the hell... Don't feel like going back to camp tomorrow but bo pian loh.....And worse still, this saturday got confinement. Must report back to camp on saturday morning. Fuck...

Happy 40th Birthday

It's 9th August 2005. It has been 40 years since we gained independence. Today, we celebrate what have been, 40 years of success. Happy Birthday Singapore!! Singapore Proud to be born a Singaporean. Always....

Specialist, my arse!!!

Luckily today got half day. Actually today was suppose to work like normal working days. Its funny why we had to work till 5.30pm even though its a National Day Eve. Worse still, it's a MONDAY. I think SAF should give half day off to all SAF personnels. I got half day because i got medical appointment in the afternoon. Pheewww.... Had this bo liao parade in the morning and i was given extra because my boots weren't shiny enough. What the fuck!! The CSM damn bloody cock la... So anyways, took a cab to NUH because it was fucking hot and costs me around 5 bucks. Quite cheap ah. Luckily i stay near the hospital. Hoping that i might be finally get downgraded but as usual, i was treated to a disappointment like so often when i see this specialist. He said that according to the bone scan, there isn't any fracture. Ok, let me explain... I fractured my shin, supposedly according to the smart asses medical officer from tekong, last september. I took the bone scan this february. Hmm, that is like almost 5 months apart. Geez, i wonder what happened to the fracture. Hmm, i think it disappeared. Right, i'm not a specialist and yet i perhaps have the answer to the question. The fracture probably healed. Because it was 5 months after that i take the bone scan. Goondu.....it doesn't take a specialist to figure that out. And when i keep saying that my shin hurts when i run, he says that there is nothing in the bone scan. You seem whenever i ask that question, he always gives me that answer. The situation was made more complicating when i visited a stand in specialist and he said that i got shin splints. The specialist that i've been seeing for the past ten months, not once mentioned about shin splints. What's worse, he said that sooner or later i have to go for re-course and if there's pain in the shin, come see him again. What the fuck!!! How do you explain the pain in my shin when i run you bloody idiot?

JC = Just Crap

I don't really like JC. In fact i don't like JC people. Why? Because i think they are just crap. Except for those of my friends who doesn't seem to act like they're from JC. But there are also JC people that i know who's attitude stinks. Yup, and that's what i think of them too. Thank god i went to Poly. And i 've never regretted it. We are just different from you JC people. I got some cousins who are/were from JC and they are just.......JC. I dunnoe la. Those who are from poly are just more cooler than you guys. What i know is you JC people try to ACT cool. Oh ya, and i also know some of them who are spoilt brats, bastards blah blah blah...... Some still got attitude problem. Please la hor, you guys wear uniform to school so please try to act like you guys go to school la. Obviously you JC people lack EQ too. I also know that some parents prefer their children to opt for Jc instead of Poly. And giving lame/stupid/unreasonable/dumbass/@#$!%&*#@ excuses for their children to not choose Poly. Some i heard says that JC is more disciplined. Ya right.. Another says that Poly are for no-hopers; can't go far in life one. Utter rubbish obviously. And the ultimate one, only clever people go to JC. Hahahahahaha *ROFL*....... It's funny how stupid people ended up at Poly. Hmm, i'm from Poly, so that means we are no-hopers, stupid people. Calling all my poly pals, we are stupid people. Geez man..Where did they come up with such comments/excuses/remarks? I say, let your children decide for themselves. If they choose Poly, so be it. If they choose JC, so be it. Its what they become when they enter tertiary education. I think for Poly you can say tertiary la but i dunnoe about JC. But who cares... My "Why Poly people are more better than JC people" List: 1. We get to wear anything other than a school uniform. That is sucky enough. 2. Hypocrites lives and breeds in JC. 3. We experience a more working life than JC. 4. We have lecturers instead of teachers. 5. Poly is a more happening and hip place to be in. JC? Go back to your secondary school. 6. Poly are full of real people. JC have a bunch of fakes. I know plenty of them by the way. 7. Poly people=cool people; Jc people=act cool=not cool=kiss my ass... 8. Almost 90% of JC people wear glasses, meaning their eyes are bad. Why? Because reading too much from textbooks can cause myopia. There are more actually but i'll just cut it short for now la. Oh ya, i read somewhere before about someone giving some 'good' facts. "JCs lays the foundation of basic concept behind theories that govern various profession and the main focus is on analytical thinking Wow, i didn't know that. And this is what he has to say about poly; "while poly touches on the hands on application" Wah, sound like so simple like that. He also got this to say; "I would like to advise the people to think more critically, rather than looking at naive issues of whether they are wearing uniform or whether how fun it is in poly and JC and who are more hypocratical as the fundamental of setting up JC and poly is to be a learning institute" And the worse part is, some people have the idea that only JC people can get degree. Damn cock right. Screw you JC freaks. Poly rox....period. Home from the album It's Time by Michael Buble

Public Transport Fares

Although public transport fares have increased since a couple of months ago, i still can't justify the reason for the increase in fares. I mean its ok if you increase the fares but if the service is still as inefficient as ever, then what is the point. LTA or whoever came out with the idea are just sucking our blood. What is pissing me off is that they can up with idea of a higher fare without improving their services, both the buses and the trains. Like for example, when i'm taking a bus back to my place from Jurong East Interchange which incidently takes only 10 minutes but it may take up to 20 minutes when i'm coming back from work. Perhaps you can say that its the peak hours and what not but that is not our problem. It is their problem. So why increase it when you can't solve the problem in the first place. This means increase in fare is not equal to better and efficient service. We pay more meaning we deserve better. Read this nonsense: New Fare Review Framework

Awkward moments

Have you ever embarrased yourself, indirectly or accidently, in front of people in crowded places? Well, i did. Not like i want it to happen la. So anyways, this was what happened. In fact, it happen just now when i was on the way back from work. So anyways, i was on the train, reaching Jurong East. And as usual there were bulls trying to prevent passengers from alighting. After squeezing through the barrage of smelly bodies, i was out. Then i took a sharp turn to my left and at that point of time, the friction between my shoes and the floor decided to ignore me and i slipped. But thankfully, i didn't fall on my ass and got back to my normal upright position. It was sort of a half slip kinda thingy that look bad if you caught it on tape and play it at slow motion. That kind of slip. I was so embarrased that i just smile and look around to see if anybody noticed what happen. And yesterday, the same thing happened but this time on the bus. Same concept of friction-less happened. There have been too many of these awkward moments in my life that i can't help but think that is it just me or what. Hmm, maybe i'm just a klutz. And like my friend always say, "its just fundamentals".. *sigh* oh well.... Quote of the day: The only sure thing about luck is that it will change ~ Wilson Mizner

Being nosey

"After going through such torrid time for the past few months, i have been very annoyed with myself. Maybe its time i take some action to prevent further deterioration of myself. It is so embarrasing to be seen like this. At least he understands me. But what can i do?" These are the words from my nose. Yeap, you heard that right. Maybe it may not be as bad as i think it is but nevertheless i still want my nose to deserve the best. I've been thinking, Bioskin or Men's Expression. One thing that is preventing me is, well i think you all know what la. Hopefully by the end of this year i can go for a full facial makeover. i really think i need it la. Because if not, i don't feel like going out and meeting people. I just don't feel good. Call me vain, call me anything you want, but as long as i don't go and do something about my nose, it is just going to get worse. Ok ok, i'll stop talking about myself. God!! It's suppose to my blog and its all about me, just me. Anyways, situation at work is back to the healthy status after what have been a turbulent 2 months. Well, i've never really talk about what happened at work and i'm not going to start now. Only my close friends knows about it so i prefer to keep it that way. So i hope the good thing stays at work and the only person who can screw it up again is me. Reputation dropped to an all-time low but defnitely recovering. Pheew... I just got to learn my lesson. Quote of the day: Moisture is the essence of wetness, and wetness is the essence of beauty ~ Derek Zoolander Delicate from the album "O" by Damien Rice