Quater-Life Crisis

When i read my friend's blog Komal about Quarter-Life Crisis, it hit me. I realised that i'm goin through this crisis. And she couldn't have said it better bout it. Most of us are going through this "being twenty something" syndrome and maybe not all of us are going through this crisis. Well, good for them i guess. Feeling insecure, confused, lost. And i still can't believe that i'm turning 23 in 7 months time. And like Komal said, you start to realise things about yourself that you don't know and don't like. And then, you start to panic because you suddenly think about where you will be in one or two years time. Then you freak out because you don't even know where you are now. Friends. People who play an important role especially when you're in your early twenties. You start to have doubts over your relationship with them and you ask yourself whether they are your friends? Your true friends? Someone who will be there when you need them the most. Or is it? They are probably thinking the same thing about you. You worry about work, money and love. We look at what we are doing now and i'm sure most of us are not even close to what we thought we be doing. Money? hmm... I'm reading a book on "The Power of Positive Productivity" and i'm still trying to understand it. And don't get me started about love. I'm almost 23 and i'm yet to fall in love. The only person i've fallen in love with is myself..... You feel that you are stucked somewhere in time and feel that nothing is going your way. And sometimes, when we feel we want to go somewhere and achieve something, we have to start from the very bottom and that freak you out. You compare youself with others and you judge yourself more than usual which in turn makes you paranoid. One minute you feel happy and the next minute you cry. Then you feel scared, lost and confused. You can't make up your mind about things and then you start thinking about your past, clinging on to it with all your might. You then realise that you don't want to move time. Emotions run high and dangerously. You talk to people about it, thinking that they understand you and that they are willing to listen to it but then again, you start to think that these people may not give a fuck about you, your life and your problems. But then again, they may give a fuck too.... [What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out ~ Komal;Thursday, November 03, 2005] Talk from the
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