Pain

Haven't been feeling 100% for the past few weeks especially after the surgery. Even though the surgery was like almost 2 weeks ago, i'm still recovering from it and suffering at the same time. This is because the pain hasn't died off. I'm struggling to keep myself 'alive' at times. I just can't describe the pain in words. But what i can say is that it is just unbearable. Its like you have an open wound and someone is pressing on it. Literally pressing on it. Its not like someone is pressing on my wound but that is how it feels. It just weakens my mind, make my hands and knees weak. And i just discovered also that my left hand(the surgery hand) is becoming weak. I just can't do anything with it now although i can still use the computer and carry light stuffs. Other than that, i can't stretch it and i can only keep it close to my body most of the time. I even got problem wearing shirts. It just freaking hurts. I have never felt such pain and have to endure it for sometime. Even the shin fracture was nothing compared to this. Not able to do anything especially working out just makes it worse. How long can i take this? Hope the answer lies on this friday when i re-enter the surgery room once more. Hope i will get 1 week mc. how about 2 weeks? Aarrggh fuck it..... [You'll never find a better sparring partner than adversity ~ Walt Schmidt]